"And they will not need to teach their neighbors, nor will they need to teach their relatives, saying "You should know the Lord.' For everyone, from the least to the greatest, will know me already," says the Lord. "And I will forgive their wickedness, and I will never again remember their sins." - Jeremiah 31:34I love that God is forgetful about my sins that I confess to him. Don't we wish everyone was like that? The thing is, in order to grow in faith and leave our addictions behind we are going to have to take chances. And we most likely are going to make mistakes...kinda like riding a bike. You have to muster up the courage to get on the bike but there are bound to be falls - at first. But get the courage to try it again and eventually as success happens you will forget about the falls and enjoy the sweet fragrance of victory.
And so it is with our addictions - muster up the courage to take that first step and admit that there is a problem. Then the work begins. Recovery is a long process and there might be mistakes along the way too. But, you've got to confess those to God and try again. The awesome thing is that he promises in Jeremiah 31:34 that he will forget about our sins. Please don't take that to mean that we will not have to deal with consequences of our actions. That's different. This means that Our Father in heaven will not hold it against us that we messed up.
Don't let recovery scare you. Confess today, get on that bike and pedal. You might fall - but the bruises will be temporary. But the eventual ride of a lifetime will be worth it.