Sunday, October 19, 2014

I Am Second with Christine Petric and Over-Coming Anger and Resentment

The Story - Christine Petric ~ iamsecond.com


 

Born in South Korea, adopted at a young age, and growing up in a predominately white suburban environment, Christine Petric was constantly reminded that she was different. The one place where these differences did not seem to matter was when she excelled on the soccer field.  At those moments she was the “successful soccer chick” and could forget any awkward discrimination.
An injury early in her freshman soccer season derailed big athletic plans, and her extra time ushered in a quickly developing dating relationship.  Soon she was living only for herself, and “being pretty selfish about it.”  It took a devastating revelation from her boyfriend that further rocked her self-esteem before she was ready to see that her true identity was found in Christ’s love for her.



Saturday, October 18, 2014

But God, I'm Angry

“Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires.” (James 1:19–20 NLT)

I read this verse the other night when I had my red light (check out the devo from 2 days ago to see what I'm talking about)...see I know that when I fall back like this I MUST start searching scripture to help me focus. Talking with God and  reading the word are truly the only things that help me re-focus.

Anyway, in my anger of being hurt, I saw this verse. I knew I had a right to be angry because of the words he chose to use. Even if he didn't mean it - he said it. 

And even though I was "working it out" with God, I kept trying to justify my anger. I was making a mental list of sorts of the wrongs. And years ago I could have done this for a long time - I mean looooonnnnngggg time. I could harbor bitterness and resentment with the best of them. Then I started attending Celebrate Recovery and working the steps. And I realized it was just so unhealthy. In reality, my anger just adding to the sin of the situation.

This verse reminds me that I must be quick to listen - not quick to anger. Yup - I messed this one up. Instead of taking the situation and being slow about my emotional reaction (and don't trust emotions - they often lie)..I was quick to jump on the angry train and barrel through town.

Eventually I forgave with my heart, but this verse is such a great reminder that in EVERYTHING I do - I want it to produce the righteousness that God desires of and for me.


Friday, October 17, 2014

One Life to Give

Yesterday, when I had my red light day I spent some time going over scriptures, and this one popped out to me. I really like Joyce Meyers and though she doesn't focus on addictions - its OK. There is more to my life than just CoDependency - and there is more to yours than alcohol, or drugs or pornography or a food addiction.

So I hope this one speak to you as it did me. I thought I'd share it.

One Life to Give

by Joyce Meyer - posted October 15, 2013


I die daily [I face death every day and die to self].
—1 Corinthians 15:31

You and I were not born knowing how to love others. In fact, we were born with a selfish, “all about me” attitude. The Bible refers to this as “sin nature.” Adam and Eve sinned against God by doing what He told them not to do and the sin principle they established was forever passed to every person who would ever be born.

God sent His Son Jesus to die for our sins, and to deliver us from them. He came to undo what Adam did. When we accept Jesus as our Savior, He comes to live in our sprit and if we allow that renewed part of us to rule our decisions, we can overcome the selfish, sin nature of our flesh. It won’t go away, but the greater One who lives in us helps us overcome it daily (see Galatians 5:16). That does not mean we never sin, but we can improve and make progress throughout our lives.

I was greatly encouraged one day when I discovered that the apostle Paul wrote, “It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me approximately twenty years after his conversion (Galatians 2:20, NKJV). Learning to live unselfishly was a journey for him, just as it is for everyone else.
Paul also wrote our verse for today: “I die daily.” In other words, even this well-known apostle struggled with putting others first; he found that doing so was a daily battle and required daily decisions. Each of us must decide how we will live and what we will live for; and there is no better time to do so than right now.

You and I have one life to live and one life to give, so the question is: How are you going to spend your life? I firmly believe that if each of us does our part to put the welfare of others first that we can see and be part of a revolution of love—and that kind of revolution has the potential to change the world.

Love God Today: Remember that whatever you do for others, you are doing for God



Thursday, October 16, 2014

How Many TImes Must I Do This?

Matthew 6:14-15 For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.  But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

 Today, I had a red light day. I wish I could say it wasn't true. For those who don't use recoveryBox, it means that I relapsed. I reverted back to an old habit and one that I thought I had kicked - but apparently not.

Thing is, someone offended me in such a hurtful way today.  A way that was just cutting. Now my readers know I have habit of  CoDependency. And tonight I messed up. I didn't use any of my learned strategies - and in the end I just kept it all in - and didn't stop the situation and use my big girl words. Instead, I stewed it all in. UGH!!  When will I learn.

Later in the evening I went to take a shower and was having a conversation with God and all I kept hearing him say to me was "You NEED to forgive him just as I have forgiven you."  And then I started to reason - "But God, he doesn't deserve my forgiveness on this again - this isn't the first time I've been hurt." And God answered my "And I've forgiven you all your sins and you don't deserve it."

OK, I'm not making this up.  It was a real conversation I was having with God and it was clear as a bright blue sky kinda day.  And I realized that even though I thought I was making such good strides with CoDependency, that I fell right back into my old ways. And when I examined it closer it was because this person hurt my pride. Oh my word! My pride!  I'm mad at someone I love because they hurt my pride.

And so, today I use this as my reminder that we must remain vigilant in our recovery journey. It's not a game or something we just do for a while. This is a life long decision to not live this old life anymore.  So now, I have to swallow my pride and offer forgiveness to this person NOT because I have to, but because I want to.

When you slip (and I pray that on your journey you don't), but if you do, don't wallow in the mistake. Allow Jesus to forgive your mistake.  And then simply move on!

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Seek peace and pursue it!

Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it.
Those battling addictions understand turning from evil and doing good. Yes, it's imperative to turn away from that life and begin to live a good life--one that is filled with choices that honor God and honor yourself. 
But this verse tells us to actively seek peace and pursue it. To me, there is nothing passive here. We could casually look for peace when it seems like it fits in our schedules. But to pursue means to make it actionable - like all the time.
Thing is, what do you consider peace? After today, I would consider it "peace" if my kids would just get along for more than 5 minutes. But honestly, peace means different things I believe to what's going on in your lives.
So perhaps peace means finally accepting that you will no longer return to your addiction (and that's huge..so I'd say make some not so peaceful noise to celebrate that one). But, perhaps it means working through the steps, or making peace with others you have hurt, or after being turned away from those who choose not to forgive you..coming to peace with that. See, having peace while working through the steps will happen but it takes action. And it is hard work.
Wishing you some peace today!!

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Musical Devo - Sanctus Real's We Will Never Give Up



"We Will Never Give Up" by Sanctus Real

We will not lose heart
We will not lose hope
When all we see is fading
We trust in what we know
We will never give up

Pressed on every side
Praying for escape
We can see the answer
That You're the only way
We will never give up

We will fix our eyes on the One who will last forever
We will hold on tight to the only real treasure
We will not lose heart
We will not lose hope
We will give our lives to the One who will last forever

We were born into weakness
Fragile by design
So we hold onto Jesus
With everything inside
We will never give up

We will fix our eyes on the One who will last forever
We will hold on tight to the only real treasure
We will not lose heart
We will not lose hope
We will give our lives to the One who will last forever

Greater is the One in us
We will never give up
Power of the Risen Son
We will never give up
We will never give up

We will fix our eyes on the One who will last forever
We will hold on tight to the only real treasure
We will not lose heart
We will not lose hope
We will give our lives to the One who will last forever

We will not lose heart
We will not lose hope
We will give our lives to the One who will last forever
Forever



Monday, October 13, 2014

Facing Our Past


Facing Our Past from Our Daily Bread