Tuesday, September 27, 2016

I Need Rest - like now!

Matthew 11:28-30

New International Version (NIV)
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

Oh my word! I am so tired! I've been working such long hours and it's for an amazing organization that is fighting pornography and sex trafficking, but it's been physically and emotionally draining.

It's so easy during these times to just turn on the computer and watch some porn, or run to the cabinet and each some junk food, or pour myself a glass of wine - but it's not going to solve my being tired. It's just a quick fix. And in the end, more harm is done than good.

What I really need is to give it all to God! I tend to get emotional when I'm tired. I go from giddy to crying. That's when I know I've hit bottom (and I'm just about there too). But, what I've learned from attending Celebrate Recovery is THIS is when I need to give it to Him.

When I read this verse, I literally picture a big father holding his outstretched arms waiting for me. I can cry in those arms and fall apart - because it's safe. And when I'm done and he wipes away my tears, I know he is going to give me rest. Physically and emotionally.

I also know that when I'm at this point- it's when I need to find ways to rejuvenate.  Ideas that work for me are to read my Bible, sit outside and just enjoy "being", go for coffee with a friend, read a book, watch TV, go for a long bike ride (I love my bike). It's so important to realize that exhaustion is a huge trigger and that we need to guard from it.

I'm heading to bed now as I need to refuel for the morning.